I know I’m a little late to be writing my first post of the year, but truth be told I’ve had a hard time getting started.
I’m feeling mildly trapped in the throws of winter, contrasted by daydreams of my last tropical excursion. How do we all manage to balance these emotional swells and swoons of everyday life while everything is so cold and frozen outside? I’m finding it difficult to focus lately and defer to spending most of my time cozied up at home, listening to Beck, baking cupcakes, playing guitar and trying new crockpot recipes while wearing furry knit hats and scraggly handmade scarves. That’s just how I do.
So on this Wednesday in February, I’m sitting here now, hiding from the world in the warmth of of my apartment and working from home. I’m burrowing under blankets and gazing at the snowy wonderland outside, wondering when we’ll get another wink from spring. We’re forced to slow down in weather like this, taking a break from the usual routines. I’m sipping a hot mug of tea and honey and can hear my boyfriend playing acoustic guitar faintly in the background. He doesn’t know I’m listening, but I’m loving every moment of it. Makes me feel this grounded sense of home and love.
Being here is also making me reflect on my past and future months. I’m not quite sure where the road ahead is leading but instead of floating along I want to carve into it and illustrate the world I crave to see myself living in.
One of the things that has been tough for me lately has been the lack of a studio space. I had grown to really love having an art studio to retreat to whenever I wanted to play with a crazy idea. At the moment, it’s just me and my laptop and my studio is still packed away into dozens of boxes and taking over an entire spare room in our apartment. I had never anticipated this many months going by without having access to all of that stuff. I had also geared up for moving, switching jobs and a whole bunch of other changes that would propel me forward with flying force into 2014. However, the reality of the situation is, sometimes things don’t work out the way you think they will, and the best understanding that I can take away from it is we only regret the chances we didn’t take.
I’m looking forward to letting go of this winter, making room for spring, finding a new studio, embarking on new adventures and having a fresh outlook of creativity. Thanks for continuing to support my art on etsy, coming to my visual shows and for following me on the Danger blog. You can expect to hear a lot more from me and I look forward to sharing with you!