I often feel like we’re all just restless souls running marathons around each other.
We fill so much of our time with the act of being busy. Dodging the noise and spam of everyday life in efforts to excavate the minerals and moments of meaning that it holds. If you’re anything like me, you’re surrounded by a bright splash of confidence and forward motion highs most of the time, while often also hit with lazy lows, hazy skies and neutral mind weather.
I daydream and I wander to escape the mundane. I listen to music to quiet my mind. I do yoga to instill patience and I inject myself with a daily dose of caffeine to carry on. I don’t mean for it to sound dismal because I actually think it’s quite beautiful in its own way. It’s my way.
I’ve actually based a lot of my personal art on this. Common themes I like to explore being: contrast, extremes, duality, longing for something greater, and moments of break through. How many of us feel this way? Extreme impulses of unlimited motivation, later mixed with setbacks, reality and bills to pay. I know it’s not just me. As David Nichtern recently said in a lecture I was listening to, it’s our constant strive as humans for the balance of “heaven” and “earth”. The tangible life that we lead day to day, mixed with the spiritual balance of real true meaning and connection.
Sometimes I secretly wonder if my own personal duality and identity has anything to do with one of the names my parents were going to give to me when I was born. In the back of the baby name book was scribbled,“Joy Anger”. I would have been the culmination of two opposite extreme emotions with a name like that. But for some reason those ideas stuck with me anyway as Holly Danger.
Those dualities may also translate from my experience in holding down a corporate day job for years, while also exploring my journey as an independent artist. It hasn’t been easy to live both of those lives simultaneously but I’ve found my ways and I’m starting to see new paths emerge as a result.
Balance, harmony and alignment are some of my daily intentions in both life and design.
I’m gaining new inspiration for what this means for me this year. Like I said in an earlier post, I’ve had a particularly difficult time starting this year with a rejuvenated spark. The long winter exhausted my body, mind & ideas. The cluttered apartment that I’ve outgrown is my only home base right now and doesn’t lend itself to the inspirational space that I crave.
However, there is a spark that I’m starting to feel. That magic twilight moment of the day where new ideas are born and perspectives shift. You may not understand what I’m talking about right now, but you will. Perhaps it’s the promise of spring. Whatever it is, I’m here and ready to start over and absorb the rejuvenation and rebirth that the equinox brings and I hope you feel it too.